Another night, another dream..

Hello, world!

Here i am, back to doing the futile job of making space in my mind by emptying out all futile thoughts. It doesnt seem to be working, but what the heck, il write whatever comes to my mind anyway!

Today was the start of whats going to be a looooonnnng weekend, Monday and Tuesday are off on account of the American Independence Day. I never thought id say this, but its barely been a month and now ive started to wish that college would reopen soon..wot a ham this is. Sitting at home and nothing to do..well actually theres lots to do, but i just dont feel like doing anything worthwhile. Call it ennui or call it lazyness..well its actually lazyness..Im starting to get fat again, i think.

Surprise, surprise! France sent Brazil packing! I saw the match at this place called Gatti's pizza, while gorging enormous amounts of pizza and gulping down sodas..well its a buffet, and i for wont do my best to get my money's worth! Anyway, it was fun watching the match on a large screen with lotsa people around..good atmosphere..reminds me of my DCE days..sighhhh.


It would be nice to have something happening after i come back from work..if thats what working life is all about, dear God, im scared! But whats the way out of all this? Become someone who is lost in a world of his own, unmindful of the world around? Or spend time with people, eating drinking and being merry? I know the correct answer is a mixture of the two in correct quantities..but i just dont seem to be able to hit that correct formula..truth be told, im finding it hard to be alone after all these years.

I miss coming back with every ounce of energy in my body exhausted from the day's work..the elation and peace one feels when one knows that he did his best is amazing..you wake up next morning raring to take on the world..Carpe Diem, you say to yourself! i used to be like that..i miss that feeling, where has it gone, i know its somewhere inside still..has it been overtaken by sloth and lazyness? or have i not learnt life's lessons properly..that there are some things you just have to let go of. Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you.

Whatever ive written till now has been a classical example of the rubbish thats been clogging my mind..ive got operating systems to run, compilers to code, ladies to woo, and miles to go before i sleep!

Thats about all the rubbish i can pen down today..I'l conclude by pasting one of my favourite poems of all time.."The Tiger" by William Blake. I think it was taught in some class in high school, and i had real problems figuring out what it meant, at that time. Well, but a lot of water has flown down the Ganges effluent treatment plant, since then..so i can make better sense of it now. The picture next to it should add to the "feel"..enjoy!



The Tiger

TIGER, tiger, burning bright
In the forests of the night,
What immortal hand or eye
Could frame thy fearful symmetry?

In what distant deeps or skies 5
Burnt the fire of thine eyes?
On what wings dare he aspire?
What the hand dare seize the fire?

And what shoulder and what art
Could twist the sinews of thy heart? 10
And when thy heart began to beat,
What dread hand and what dread feet?

What the hammer? what the chain?
In what furnace was thy brain?
What the anvil? What dread grasp 15
Dare its deadly terrors clasp?

When the stars threw down their spears,
And water'd heaven with their tears,
Did He smile His work to see?
Did He who made the lamb make thee? 20

Tiger, tiger, burning bright
In the forests of the night,
What immortal hand or eye
Dare frame thy fearful symmetry?